Being a night owl

As I just finished scrubbing my kitchen counters, the stove, getting the oven ready to be wiped down in the morning, putting away dishes, washing dishes and getting things going in the dishwasher, preparing bottles, wiping down the trash can, and scrubbing the microwave I realized why I like being up so much in the middle of the night. The middle of the night is, and always has been, MY time.

I can be myself in the middle of the night without worrying about interfering with anyone else's life. I can clean if that is what my heart wants to do without worrying about my little one needing attention or my attention being torn between spending time with my husband and being a "Martha." At night I can write without feeling like my creativity is being stifled. I can take a long bath and read as long as I want to without someone wanting my attention. At night I can be alive, be myself, and not have to be "mom" or "wife." Before I could do it without having to be "daughter" or, at one point, "roommate."

Now don't get me wrong. I love my "day job." I love being Sherwood's mommy. I love being Aaron's wife. And I love being a daughter, sister, and friend. These are wonderful roles that I get to play in the grand scheme of life. But I really love the freedom that I get when the world is asleep to just be Dana.

So tonight I scrubbed the kitchen. And I feel accomplished because it is something that I haven't had time to do thoroughly in the last week or so. I would like to say that I swept and mopped too, which needs done, but I didn't have the energy to do that as well.

I wish I could say that I was tired enough to sleep. Unfortunately, I can't. I actually think I am going to try doing some creative writing. A story was formulating in my head last night. Its been awhile since I've done any creative writing. It might turn out to be crap but it will be fun to try writing it. Hopefully soon I will head for bed though or getting up for a walk in the morning won't happen, and I need to do that.

So here's hoping that writing will tire my brain out and allow me to head for bed. :)